My child asked for one thing a couple of weeks ago. One thing and I cannot deliver! He wanted to go to the Ren Fest. Mom, can we go? Sure! And then … BOOM! It’s October 12th and the last day for the Ren Fest is in 3 days. Really? How did that happen? It happened because of life. Trying to cram too many things into a small time period and what do you get – grown up children. That blink I had – it must have lasted 4 weeks. How? I don’t understand.
You know when you get that feeling inside that you need to do something about something. But the problem is that you don’t know what something A is and you sure in the hell don’t know what something B is. You just know there is something. That is where I am right now. Trying to figure out my somethings. Not easy for 44 year old to do. But I left work today with some determination. As Simon Sinek says, I’m going to find my WHY! Not my WHY is business but my WHY in life.
I know I am here for my kids. Although, as they get older, I am realizing they don’t need me as much as I think they need me. I am here for my husband. But why am I here for ME? Why have I always left this part out?
Well, not anymore sister! I’m finding my WHY. It may take a few seconds but with hard work and determination – I will find the definition of those somethings! And while The Ren Fest is just about over, I know that I will find another fun, family outing for this October! And that will be the beginning of my WHY!